Anger is an ugly emotion that all of us don’t want to have.
But at some point in our lives, we’ve dealt with the harsh reality of anger.
A couple of months ago, I dealt with a bout of anger.
I won’t reveal the person’s name or go into specifics about the story, but it deals with someone very close to me.
I love this person with all my heart, but they do some of the stupidest stuff that gets them into trouble. Recently, they decided to act like an idiot and got themselves into a heap load of trouble.
Now because of their actions, this person’s family is trying to clean up their mess.
I’m trying to help out with everything by taking care of this person’s pets and doing some of their other chores.
At times, it gets hard. With my own work, plus taking on this person’s responsibilities, I sometimes get stressed.
This has my thinking about this person. I’ve done a lot for them over the years, I’ve loaned them money to fix their car (which they never paid back). Plus, I’ve dogsitted their pets, helped with their homework, and did a lot of other stuff, while they went out gallivanting on the town.
The reason behind my anger is because I feel like they’re taking advantage of my kind-hearted nature. Second, I’m angry at this person for continuing to act like an idiot.
This situation with them has been going on for years. They keep promising they’re going to change, yet it seems like they don’t want to. They don’t realize the pain they cause their family and friends when they do this stupid crap.
I think that’s what bothers me the most with this situation. I’ve stuck up for them in the past when other people cut my friend down, yet after seeing their irresponsible behavior, I’m beginning to question my faith in this person.
I’ve been trying my hardest to move past my anger, yet there are some days where it rears its ugly head. But I have to remind myself to let it go. Holding on to this anger is only going to cause me more pain, and that’s the last thing I need.
I just need to move on. Hope for my best for me and my friend.
P.S. I apologize if I rambled too much in this post, but I needed to get this off my chest.